REALLY, do what you LOVE!

So, after the day I had today---I thought--wow I should reallllly BLOG about this stuff.

Then I logged in so I could blog a little and I saw my last post.  July 6, 2014.  I remember that day.  I was highly upset with life that day.

It was a hard summer.  You know the one after you graduate from college at 35 YEARS OLD and no job and the job opportunities were dwindling right before me.  It was hard. 

I interviewed at a school that I thought was going to be the job of my DREAMS.  I had just completed my Internship 2 at a local middle school  and I could not wait to get start in the band world.

But after 2 weeks--actually longer than that---that DREAM job slammed closed in my face.  I could not believe it.  It felt like it was MINE.  I was at that school for HOURS.  I thought they LOVED me.

I kept searching the websites for openings.  And the band positions kept closing just as quickly as they opened. 

And then, there was just nothing.  Nothing that I really could apply for due to distance.  And when I say distance, I mean like over an hour away.  Over an hour---is just too far when you add up the gas and hours away from family.

Then I got a text from a friend.  She asked if I would be willing to teach elementary music in Little Rock.  Oh, I was just blahhhhhh about the whole thing.  I honestly thought she was crazy.  I looked at the job requirements and was like NOPE, not gonna happen!

She said JUST CALL them.  See, the job requirement said Masters preferred and they wanted someone with piano skills.  I was like NOPE and NOPE.

My friend assured me that I would be fine, just call and set up an interview.  She said "Trust me."

The crazy thing about this friend is that I would have never met her if it wasn't for Origami Owl.  I direct sales business I joined about 2 years ago now.  She caught my eye on a FB page and I wanted to something nice for her because her son was in remission.  Well, the something nice turned into her wanting to do a party---a fundraiser actually.  She runs. A lot. :) And she runs in honor of her son.  She is really an inspiration. 

So, not long after the party, she signed up to sell Origami Owl too.  Her and I have so much in common that it is crazy....She was in school to be a teacher and she graduated right before me, she plays flute, and there are many other things too.  

Well, I trust Tara, so I called.  I was like here we go again.  Setting myself up for heartbreak, but I had to try in case it WAS meant to be.  The what ifs would have killed me.  I called, and my interview was set for the next day.

I put my trusty little interview suit on and drove myself to Southwest Little Rock.  Now, this drive was different.  I was actually fighting back tears because as I drove to the interview I had this amazing feeling take over me.  I was driving to MY school.  MY SCHOOL.  This is was MY TEACHING POSITION.  I knew it.  I was about to start teaching elementary music in Little Rock, AR. 

See, for some reason or another I have been pulled to Little Rock---yeah, at first it was the military---but we can't seem to get orders out of here.

So, I pull up to the school, and I was like YEP, this is MY school alright. 

I went inside, met with the principal and about 20 minutes (if that) later, I was out the door. 

There was no way I got this job.  20 min?? Seriously.

Well, the days went by, no answer.

Days and days of looking at my phone every 2 seconds for a phone call?  Nothing.

School was starting in 1 week.  1 week! And I knew he had not made a decision, because I had just talked to him.

Then the phone rang.  FINALLY---it was the principal offering me the job.  OMG, I didn't even know how to act.  I just know I was like YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!! I was crying, I was ESTATIC!

Then I was like, what the heck?  You think you can teach elementary music?  And I was like YEP, you need a paycheck and you can do ANYTHING you put your mind to!

After one week of preparation---well, not even that when you count meetings---It was time to put my game face on!

I fell in love INSTANTLY.  I was initially scared.  I didn't think I was tough enough to work in a Title 1 school in Little Rock, Arkansas. 

I LOVE the students at my school so much!!! I am hooked, and I plan on staying with these students for as long as I am able. 

We are military.  And that makes me super sad sometimes.  I have been dying for orders for so long, but I have now found a reason to stay in Arkansas.  The kiddos at my school.  It seems like this was all part of His plan for sure.  The Lord knew what he was doing.  He knew that I could handle this school and that they would  love me as much as I love them.  He knows I don't know EVERYTHING I need to know about elementary music---but He knows that I have love for these kids and that I have such high expectations for them. 


Anyways, how I feel into this position wasn't really what I wanted to blog about, but I will save it for later...It's nothing in particular really.  Just the ups and downs of a FIRST YEAR TEACHER. lol :)

Do what you are passionate about...psshhh, whatev.

I was going to blog but EVERYTHING I had to say was very, very ugly.

I am just going to leave it at that I guess.  I am not very happy that I just spent the last 5 years of my life busting my butt and I am going to be a substitute. 

We better get orders so I can really say that this all happened for a reason.